I forgot to say out loud,

T for tired

2010-03-11T18:53:25Z

Alright I swear I feel like my legs are gonna die on me. It's aching and so is my back. Funny how I was so used to standing for hours everyday back then at work and now, just an 8 hour shift is enough to kill me. I must be getting old.

Job hunt isn't looking too good. Still can't find one that I'm interested in.

Here I am typing this cause I actually think insomnia has oh so kindly returned after a long while. And I also think my screwed up body clock is part of the reason as well. It seems like I'm not able to sleep until the clock hits 3. This is bad.

Okay my fingers are tired from typing already. Goodnight , and I shall attempt to drift into deep sleep.

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This is goodbye

2010-03-10T17:57:57Z

Humiliated myself enough.

Like a book that's left open for far too long, the pages have turned yellow.
As the day goes, as winds pass, the pages somehow manages to flip till the book shuts.
& that's exactly how it's going to be.

Took me way too long to realise what a joke i am.
Slowly, im losing every bit of me.
This is absurd - what have i turned into?
It has finally jolted me into realizing how i've screwed up my life.

We're the victims of ourselves.

A day at home

2010-03-09T14:18:23Z

Wow, i actually stayed home today, how rare is that? Anyway, it wouldn't last more than a day, unless im sick or something. Most of the time, i like to be out and about! Can't seem to keep my ass at home though.

Did SOME productive things like vacuuming my room ( solely my room cause one minute i was quite enthusiastic about cleaning the whole house, and the next, i was like argh, whatever, im too tired and i'll just do mine. So i guess this is what period does to you aye - mood swings!) , painting my toe nails ( tried painting my fingers but it turned out hideous after doing my left hand), made a hair appointment tmr and erm, i guess that was about it.

Just earlier i was watching Teen Cribs on MTV, and OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS, HOW IN THE WORLD DO THESE KIDS GET SO DAMN LUCKY?! No seriously, im not exaggerating. Their houses are as big as probably those of celebrities! They have their own cinema with a popcorn machine, their own fully equipped gym, a play room with pool table & arcade games, a huge swimming pool & hot tub & SO MUCH MORE. Wow, im impressed. Strangely though, it was kinda motivational. Makes me wanna work hard, earn big money and get a house like this someday!

That aside, im still quite pissed with my folks for not letting me go to bintan with my usuals. IT'S JUST BINTAN AND IT'S ONLY 2 DAYS 1 NIGHT! That's even shorter than a chalet stay! >>:( They didn't even try to rationalize with me, or maybe we could talk about it and compromise or something?! No. The only sentence that came out from my mother's mouth were " NO NO NO NO NO." Tell me, how do i carry on convincing them with such response that doesn't make you feel like talking anymore. They always say " Life's short, you should eat anything you want" but why can't they apply that to travelling as well?!

It's not like i asked for this heart condition & it's not like i had a choice. But still i think me and sis accepted it very well and we are behaving like every normal kid, not trying to let this condition of our hinder anything in our lives. The only thing now that im asking for is to let me go overseas with my FRIENDS, since you don't even bring us on holidays anymore, since like i was primary 4?! The rest were all thanks to club rainbow. If they didn't have any annual trips, i bet i would have been stuck in Singapore for 10 years and counting. Argh, okay, whatever, talking about it makes me fuming mad.

Okay, i got a $10 voucher from Spotlight. Im thinking i should head down and see what junk i can get from there.

& i think my lappy is about to die on me. It's sending me signs. Firstly my laptop takes ages to shut down, or rather it doesnt shut down even after waiting for close to half an hour. Next, my itunes is always on and off. Like it can be playing my song for one minute and the next thing i know, it shuts down on its own. Shit, i think i need to get a hard disk soon to back up all my data. ALL THOSE PICTURES AND SONGS! :O This is bad,really bad. Ugh, why is everything screwing up?

That's enough.

2010-02-28T16:59:39Z

Okay, Full Stop. I think i've finally understood.
Everything that was once blurred or which i failed to see are slowly becoming more defined.
It's okay. I have already made my decision awhile ago, this is just a confirmation to it.

Curiosity kills the cat.
But it beats living in denial.

Now what?

2010-02-21T18:00:30Z

It's times like these that i really hate. Having to think of so many things after an exhausting day at work. When will i ever be able to be carefree and not have to worry about this and that? & i've brought upon myself alot of unecessary thinking as well. Sometimes i just hope i can stop my mind from wandering too far off!

Im losing money again this CNY. A little luck perhaps? ):

One off the list

2010-02-19T07:11:40Z

FINALLY AFTER PROCRASTINATING FOR 2 BLOODY YEARS, I'VE BOOKED MY BTT.

Damn, but it's in April, i still have to wait for another 1 month odd. Oh wellllllll, serves me right for delaying. Im quite determined to get my license before my 21st! Not sure if it's achievable due to time and money constrains, but i'll try! Can't wait to lay my hands on those steering wheels!

C&C lovin!

2010-02-17T17:09:51Z

Met up with Woman on the first day of CNY . Yay, we're not alone on Valentine's Day, hah! Met her for some C&C at Starbucks at Cuppage. Had a good time catching up. So much to update each other. More on my side though. There wasn't potato salad and the Caesar Salad was disappointing, 7 bucks worth of greens, two cherry tomatoes and two slices of chicken - all gone to waste. Neither of us really felt like stuffing them down our throats. So after we had enough coffee, we headed to Wine Connection for some wine lovin. Then her friend came to join us for awhile cause Woman was suppose to watch movie with them and abandon me all alone, hah!
I want to own a DSLR too ): money, drop down from heaven please. Just a few thousands will do.

Alrightoooo, im finally gonna sign up for driving tmr! I hope it doesn't cost me a bomb :O

feedyourears @ 2010-02-16T00:20:00

2010-02-15T16:11:50Z

"People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn't. Staying, even when you know it will break your heart is the toughest. Staying right where you are, waiting for your heart to be ripped apart is much harder than walking away and starting anew."

Feb and Fab

2010-02-13T16:36:32Z

Rightttttttt, it's already Chinese New Year. Time is going by so much quicker than i expected. Im graduating soon, and my last day in TP would be on the 17th of Feb and im still uncertain and unsure of what my next step is gonna be. Sigh, i hate making such decisions. But the time will definitely come isn't it? Can't avoid it.

So for the past week or so i went to butter in the midst of my final assignment, had my hair snipped, met up with J, tried playing left for dead ( which i totally suck at), gotten a shade darker, tried to make swimming a weekly thing, celebrated christopher's birthday ( finally, after 3 years of friendship) and so much more which i can't recall right now. Pretty eventful uh. I still have a HTM D&D coming up at the end of the month and im still fretting over what to wear!

Happy Birthday Chris! Finally, a healthy birthday celebration!

OH, and i found new books to read. The wonders of spring cleaning aye? You find things you never knew you had! Sweet. & im already halfway through one of the book titled "My Best Friend's Girl" - yet another heart wrenching storyline that has moved me to tears. & i can't wait for Dear John to be out in the cinemas! I can picture myself bawling my eyes out just like how i did when i read the book.

It's already Feb!

2010-01-31T17:35:47Z

It's been exactly one month since i last blogged. My my my, in a blink of an eye internship has ended & im back to school. I really need to stop being such a huge procrastinator and keep working on my research paper. I've done only the introduction part. Wait, no. Im not even fully done, it's just bits and pieces here and there. Damn, I've consultation tmr and i don't have the slightest idea as to what i should ask my tutor! :O Crap!

Last month i was busy with chalets after chalets. 3 weeks of BBQ-ed food. It's a wonder my throat hasn't failed on me YET (touch wood).
Dearest Jessie has finally turned 21! Hoho. Can't believe we're all turning 21 already. Man, it's making me feel old. Time to really start thinking about my path after poly.

& have i mentioned, that there's a number of things i wish to achieve/ attain this year. I am quite determined to achieve them though.

Get my driving license before i turn 21!
Go on a holiday ( just get me out of Singapore for awhile please!)
Make swimming a weekly thing ( now that i've sorta mastered it)
Save money for my 21st birthday celebration ( yeah i better save it for good)
Get a new camera, better still a DSLR (Lumix GH-1 maybe?)
Get my Golden Half Camera or any other Lomo cameras.

Arghhhh, so many things to accomplish, so little money! I think i seriously need to set up a stall at a flea market soon ):
Anw, on a random note before i go, the song im listening to right now - I never told you by Colbie Caillat, is just awesome.
Okay, i should stop reading old chat logs!

A brand new start

2010-01-01T13:49:51Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR !
2010, a brand new year ahead, a brand new start.
i hope to achieve more things this year
and to be a better person.
not going to pen down my resolutions here like i've always had for the past two years.

Gonna keep them private this time around & make sure i'll attain them or at least somewhere close to attaining it.

2010 means im going to turn 21.
which also means, i can start using my new organiser!

Entered my pin for 5 times that day

2009-12-27T16:35:56Z

On Saturday i went to town after attending the Novena in search for Christmas presents for my family & also to check out 313 that everyone's raving about. Now i truly understand why, and i can't help but to rave about it just as much as well. 313 is like a shopping paradise. With 4 storeys of Forever 21 & Zara, New Look, Cotton On, Mango & even Cold Rock, who could even resist?!

Shopping alone was good. I kinda like doing things alone at times - listening to my ipod while walking around the malls.
I should have left town earlier, because each time i proceeded to another mall, i find myself spending even more. Totally blew off 100 bucks that day. Oh gollly. This should be my first and last shopping spree for now till i get my next pay cheque! But i must say, im pretty much happy with most of my purchases.

Loots from F21! The rings were a great deal, really!

Glad that the folks liked the gifts i got them. I had a hard time deciding what to get for Dad & Grandpa. I ended up getting marks and spencers cookies! hahaha. More practical right, at least they can eat it! I think i've bought for them far too many boxers & socks. Time for a change.

Christmas Eve was spent with my dearest botak, Nora. Initial plan was to have pot luck at Becky's place but oh well, it got canceled. So i met her at her place and we drove to Haji Lane. Had dinner & chillax-ed at Blue Jaz with some beer. Then we went around taking pictures with her baby. Can't wait for that ass to upload them! she's taking ages.

Attended mass with the family on Christmas then we headed off to mum's cousin's place for lunch. Had dinner with the usuals at Canele before heading off to Wine connection & then to becky's place. Benjamin & moses came along too. Basically spent most of our time there playing Wii & challenging one another. Thank you becky & joy for the christmas present!

Can't wait for the New year to arrive. It's gonna put a close to a pretty bad year .

Just 11 more days

2009-12-20T15:54:59Z

The year is coming to an end & it terrifies me a little as to how time flies so quick. But all the better. Can't wait for a new year. I've already thought of some new year resolutions which i hope to keep to this time around. I really hope the new year ahead would be a much better one.

This month was filled with many birthday celebrations. Practically every weekend i've a birthday celebration to attend to. Not forgetting mine. I had a wonderful 20th Birthday celebration. A big thank you to all who celebrated for me, be it in advance/ belated. Love you guys ♥ All photos are up on facebook. Im too lazy to post them here. Well, maybe i will, when i really have the time to. The earphones finally died on me. Well, at least it lasted more than a year. Guess it's a sign, hah! & i hope it doesn't rain in the morning tmr. Hate having to bring a brolly and stepping on puddles of disgusting water. Eeeew.

Yay, gingy.

2009-11-30T17:55:26Z

Major Bad Hair Day.
But who cares when you've got gingerbread?

P/S: Sorry for the poor quality pictures. It was taken with a 1.3 Megapixel web cam.

Got a tummy to lose? Try this.

2009-11-29T14:35:05Z

Im such a huge procrastinator as always.
I've yet to type a single word into that little space for my e-journal.
Been thinking all day about what to type.
But apparently i got distracted & as you can see, i've changed my layout AGAIN.

Anw, i came across this on lookbook.nu
& i think i should get this piercing so that it'll curb my hunger pangs and help me lose that tyre of mine.
Because the more i eat, the more the skin is gonna stretch, and the more painful it'll get.
Hmmmm, new way of losing weight? What say you?

What a night.

2009-11-28T16:44:14Z

Went to Phuture yesterday.
& i swear the whole night was filled with alot of weird/ strange events.
Bumped into a few familiar faces as well.

Firstly, the prata shop doesn't sell plain prata, but they sell egg prata, mushroom prata, etc.
We're still figuring out why the hell don't they want to sell us the damn plain prata?!
Upselling uh i suppose. Even Pearlyn was charged for 3 packets of sugar. Pffffffft!

Secondly, the dancefloor is filled with super childish guys.
Although i must admit some of them were tan & hunky, but wtf?! their actions are so absurd.
They literally formed a circle around us, holding hands.
Seriously, omg. I felt like kicking them in the nuts.
I was so pissed that i told one of them off, argh.

Thirdly, some random guy came approaching us at Zouk while we were taking a break from all the crowd,

asking us to go over to his table for a round of drinks.
Said, he wanted to introduce his cute friend and blah blah blah.
But they turned out to be all in their late 20's or early 30s.
Seriously man?! We managed to escape back to phuture though.

Oh, but the last event was a good one!
Wahhh, major heartthrob i tell you!
He's so damn charming , i swear.

& to my horror, i saw something i shouldn't have seen.
Sigh. Why do guys who are already attached, still dance with other girls in the club?
Nevermind if its just dancing , but walking out holding hands?!
Guys, will always be guys.

feedyourears @ 2009-11-27T02:32:00

2009-11-26T18:32:56Z

I need to plant a money tree that'll be able to grow fast enough to produce 100 bucks per week.

The weekend is coming to an end

2009-11-22T14:20:10Z

Don't ask me why, but i've just decided to change the whole layout of my journal. Pretty dull & boring aye, but it's not quite what i pictured it to be though, but it's close to it. Too bad for me, im not too much of a HTML expert . Till i actually get the hang of all those codes that seem foreign to me, this will have to do for the time being.

I can see how stagnant my blog is at the moment. Doubt anyone still reads it though. Kinda miss how i used to blog daily or even twice a day & how i'd rave about something that excites me or just rant about some idiot that spoils my day. Well don't get me wrong, i still do, just not here i suppose.

It's a luxury to actually be able to type in this space now & sipping green tea because that means im not busy doing mind numbing paperwork or seen standing for several hours and running around the huge store( oh btw, cotton on now has a megastore at pwp). Finally a weekend where i can sleep in till my breakfast becomes my lunch & not having to worry about anything work related. I better treasure the last 2 hours of the weekend because i can foresee myself buried with heaps of work to do.

& yes the monsoon season is here. Hate rainy days, really. Especially when im about to leave the office & it starts to rain. It's not like there's shelter to the bustop. Despite the rainy season, today was an exception. It was a Sunny Sunday & i decided to hit the swimming complex . Didn't get much of a tan because apparently when i woke up from my little nap, the sky was covered by dark clouds. But apparently, the minute i walked down the flight of stairs to the shower, the sun penetrated through the dark clouds. Argh, just my luck. & i was too lazy to walk back up the tanning deck anw. Oh well, be contented geraldine.

Dad's asking me to eat papaya but im trying my best to avoid it. Oh how i hate fruits!

feedyourears @ 2009-11-22T01:06:00

2009-11-21T16:57:33Z

Even after 16 hours of sleep, i still feel tired.

feedyourears @ 2009-11-21T02:42:00

2009-11-20T18:33:42Z

GONNA GET SOME BEAUTY SLEEP BEFORE MY EYE BAGS GET ANY BIGGER.

It's 9:09am

2009-11-20T01:18:34Z

& im here at the office already. Was suppose to be doing the visa photo stuff , but apparently shuhui's laptop crashed on her & all the photos are inside. So, i really don't know what we're going to do about it. Sigh, so much that she has done cannot be recovered. Good game to us. Maybe this is where we can really say FML. Seriously.

feedyourears @ 2009-10-30T01:17:00

2009-10-29T17:10:30Z

Oh man, i've not typed in this space for an awfully long time.
I don't even have enough time to rest, what more blog.

All i bother about now, is to get at least 5 hours of sleep each day, otherwise you'd see me dozing off.
Time is not on my side.
So much to do, yet so little time.
Greatttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Hate my ugly out-of-shape hair ):

2009-10-10T18:23:21Z

I seriously need to get a haircut but i've been so busy that now my nape baby is almost being covered by my hair.
It's getting out of shape & i hate it. Argh.
I might just consider having long hair if i don't get it cut anytime soon.

Met up with woman today for a short catch up session after work.
Went to wine connection for some cheap good wine & salad.
Went to prawn & bbq with usuals ytd!
Didn't manage to catch any prawns though. Because i was too impatient and only sat there for a mere 5 minutes.
I gave up and decided to attend to the bbq pit instead.

Im so busy and stressed that white hair is starting to appear.
HATE HATE HATE IT.
Argh.
i should calm down and stop being so stressed out.

In need of some TLC. HAHA

What are the odds?

2009-10-01T14:50:14Z

Happiness is shortlived.
Let's just embrace the moment.

I love the long weekend

2009-09-19T18:41:09Z

Finally, after working for 18 consecutive days, i managed to get 12 hours of sleep. I better use this long weekend to catch up on my lack of sleep before my million dollar eyebags turn to billion dollar ones.

For the first two weeks of intern, i was busy with the AMK hub event. As for this week, i was seen busy preparing for the BMW charity car display set up. On a friday night, when orchard is bustling we started the BMW car display set up. There was a slight screw up initially but im so glad that everything turned out well in the end. It even ended pretty early. Early enough for me, calista and mayling to go for only a drink at alley bar. Too bad eveywhere closed at 3. By the time we drove there, it was nearly 2 plus.

TADA!

On thursday i had an impromptu meet up with Eleonora. LIKE FINALLY! After saying a gazillion times that we'd meet soon ( which never really happened) we finally did. I think we can't plan to meet because each time we do, it gets cancelled. We went to some backpackers hotel/bar. Quite a nice place to chill out in the middle of little india. and Nora almost killed me by making me finish 3 pratas! I've never eaten so much flour in my life at a go. Haha.

Sat, i headed to Parkway with dionne. Afterwhich we headed to Georges to have a drink. Oh man, i sense a beer belly coming my way.
I still have a second part of the BMW charity setup to look into this coming week & i hope all goes well too.

Alright, toodles, time to hit the sack!